And then I found you
I have decided to love you, in the most simple way that I possibly can. When you’re tired and groggy at 3am and your voice cracks as you ask if I’m awake too. When you wake up from a dream and the first thing you search for is my hand. In the moments I catch you staring at me laughing or when I’m concentrating really hard on something that doesn’t need concentration at all. When you bury your face in my neck and kiss down my right arm. When we lay in the front seat of my car and stare out my sunroof at the stars. When you eat ice cream and get some on the tip of your nose. At 9am. At 10am. At 2pm. At 6pm. At every hour before, after, and in between. When you tell me that you laughed at the thought of something I did months ago. When you tell me “I know how important it is to you, I won’t let you make the mistake. Let’s wait.” and we wait. When I squinch my face and you kiss the bridge of my nose and laugh and tell me how cute I look. When you tangle your feet in mine. When you get off work and you’re covered in dirt. When you’re showered and clean. When you’re happy. When you’re sad. When you’re exploding with excitement and tell me every detail, even the minor ones. When you smile at the sight of me having dandelions in my hair. When you tell me you’ve never felt about another girl the way you feel about me. When you ask if I’m okay, even when you know I am. When you hug me and kiss my forehead, even when you know I’m not. When you grab and squeeze my hand for no reason at all. When you sleep. When you snore (because you do that a lot). When you drive. When you sing. When you underestimate yourself. When you feel accomplished. When you eat. When you watch tv in all sweats. When you bond with my dad (I love that more than you will ever know). When you sit with me in church. When you make me food. When you tease me. When you’re brushing your teeth. When you’re doing nothing at all. I have decided to love you. Today, tomorrow, everyday. Because when I was 4, 9, 15, 19 and all the years between, I created the perfect man in my head and waited to find the one I thought could never exist. Somehow, I found you. And I have never, ever felt as alive as I do when I’m holding your hand.